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23 [Feb. 4th, 2012|10:51 pm]
Lee Family
Wow. It's been so long. January passed by too quickly. Well. Probably cos of CNY, Jan felt like it was over in a flash. Well there you have it. It's been a tradition to take family portraits at my grandpa's house, so every year without fail, we take photos, and it's amazing to see everyone grow up. 


Lee Family (Extended)
This is my father's side, my two sulky little spoilt bratz cousins, so easy to spot them. Spoil the picture by not smiling. Every year its the same. Sigh.

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Grandchildren
The grandchildren! I think my cousins quite pretty, we grew up not talking much to each other, but slowly we're all growing up and just catching up on the silent years hahaha.


Ng family
My mom's family! Not full but pretty much everybody! This was reunion dinner on chu xi!


This was on the 28th, my cousin's 21st birthday, a quiet and simple affair, dinner with the family.

All grandsons!
Almost all the grandsons in this picture! Interesting fact, my mom's side, all my cousins are males. I have about 7 of them, all guys. Amazing huh. Haha. I'm the smallest sized lol!!

Okay that's the CNY update, about 23 days to ORD!
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2012|07:38 pm]
I'm determined to trust in God for this next phase of my life. I'm gonna appeal into NTU Wee Kim Wee School of Communications by submitting my portfolio. And then everything is in God's hands already. I know there's communications at SIM too, but NTU more established, more hands on, and it's 4 years instead of 3.

Exactly 50 days to ORD.
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I Won't Give Up [Jan. 5th, 2012|11:46 am]


2011 has been a damn trying year for me. One whole year spent in NS. I can't believe that it's over and that I'm gonna ORD already. However I still lament the fact that my schedule doesn't coincide with all my friends, and that every time I'm super free, they're all super busy. And when they're free, I'm in camp. Sad to say I'm drifting from my fairfield friends too much already, :(

Anyhow, I keep thinking about being single and all that shit. Damn sian. Can't believe I'm 21 already and turning 22 this year. Bloody hell. It's probably still kinda early to settle down with some girl, but still, it's nice to have someone y'know? Sighpie. This song is so moving, kinda like the idea of how one is so damn persistent in love, and how one is willing to do anything to make it work. Enjoy. (:
LinkSpeak

More to Life [Dec. 12th, 2011|08:17 pm]

My church is having a musical on the 23rd and 24th Dec, and for the entire year, most of my weekends were dedicated to meetings and rehearsals and meetings and rehearsals. I dreaded it at the start cos it took up a lot of my time, some more I only get to book out on weekends, which makes them even more precious. Friday night book out, Sunday night book in, which means 48 hours outside every week.

I try my best to do the job that i'm tasked to do, and i'm 2nd in charge for Publicity as well, so it also involved a lot of media and brainstorming, something like advertising. I run errands for people, and sometimes people take me for granted. They think as if I have a lot of time, and nothing to do. Sometimes I just want to be nice and help people do this and that, but really, they just keep giving me more.

Anyway this is not about complaining. It's about how I've come to find joy in the things that I do. Now whatever I'm assigned to do, I just see it as if I'm doing it for the Lord. And recently, I've made some new friends, the cast who are so, so young. Like 7 years younger than me. Hahaha it makes me feel young again, whenever I interact with them. Feels good!

Some pictures coming up soon!
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Future [Dec. 2nd, 2011|11:14 pm]
Every once in a while I'll feel super scared, so afraid of the future. What if I don't find the right girl? What if I don't make enough money to support my family? What if I can't give back to my parents what they've given me? What if...?

Y'know everyone says trust God, He is bigger than our problems, our worries. But from my point of view, the future really seems bleak :/ I see so many couples around, my friends and their long term relationships. Some friends even getting married and settling down already. Sigh pie. I'm stupid for worrying about this kinda things.

Anyway, ETEP is over, nothing to do until ORD in Feb! Busy with musical stuff, every week doing stuff, and hopefully can do other things in camp like soccer frequently and all that. Idk how people can keep up with the optimist mentality all the way. It's tiring. Once in a while it's okay to break down the strong exterior and be vulnerable. Everyone's human after all.
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(no subject) [Nov. 13th, 2011|08:51 pm]
I can't wait for the end of the year. 2 more weeks and I'll be on lull mode till ORD.

This is a very short post. I need to book in already.
LinkSpeak

Technology makes us poor [Oct. 22nd, 2011|10:11 pm]
Technology makes us poor. I'm not talking about financially. Although yeah, all the gadgets are pretty pricey. But seriously, with conversations being held on Twitter, Facebook, Whatsapp, BBM, iMessage, people just stop talking face to face. Think about it. If you didn't update your friends about what you did, or what you felt constantly, you feel the need to update your close friends, your bf/gf about the past week's happenings, what happened that was significant to you, all that. However, with the increasing social media outlets, it seems that conversations has lost all it's worth. People now talk about the most superficial things. Something to think about.

Everywhere I go with my parents to eat, I will definitely, and I say definitely, see a family with the kid/s playing an iPhone or an iPad. Definitely. What has become of this generation? What happened to playing with erasers, kuti kuti, or kicking a bottle cap around in substitution for a ball. I miss my primary school days, where everything was physical, nothing was virtual. I remember me and my brother's obsession with soccer, we would use anything to play. Mcdonalds had this Sesame Street bean stuffed toy collection once, and I remember we collected a lot of them. So, with the sofa as the goal, we used to kick the mini bean bag like toys around. It was really fun, something that no kid in this generation will experience. Skate scooters, plastic bottle caps, erasers, god I miss those days.

I remember there were 2 mama shops under my block, and my grandmother would give me $2-$3 secretly to go down and buy sweets. That was like heaven for me. I would bring my skate scooter down, scoot to one shop and buy some sweets, then scoot to the other and use the rest of the money. I loved sweets. I mean, that was how I spent my time, doing stuff. Now all I see kids doing are playing with iPhones. Sigh, the times have changed.




Here's a picture of me and my grandma. I wished I had taken one with my grandpa when he was still alive. Anyway, my grandma dotes on me the most, out of all her grandchildren. I used to be really close to her until we shifted house. Now I see her once a fortnight. But still better than nothing! (:
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Memories... [Oct. 16th, 2011|07:10 pm]
Just had steak at Jack's Place for dinner. Ah, the memories. I remember when we (my brother and I) were much much younger, how our family would go to Jack's Place for every birthday celebration. My parents really loved the steak there, and so we would just follow and eat the kids' meal. It was something we looked forward to every quarter of the year, cos my mom's birthday was in February, my dad's in May, my brother's in Oct and mine in December. Every year my brother and I looked forward to being able to eat the adults' meal, cos kids under 11 had to have the kids' meal, and it was like, our way of knowing when we sorta "grew up".

That was about 10 years ago. I grew up in Clementi so we ate at West Coast Recreation Centre's Jack's Place. I remember when I was allowed to buy an adult's meal, I was so happy, cos it meant I was no longer a kid! Looking back, I think that now I really have grown up. Gonna be 21 years old soon, I wish my parents had taught me stuff like, the different kinds of wine, how to drink scotch, dressing up for an occasion, how to use a fork and knife properly. I recall in primary 6, there was this Fairfield Founder's Day Dinner at Meritus Mandarin, nobody told me the dress code, my parents didn't teach me what to wear all that, and I wore t-shirt and berms to the event. I was utterly humiliated. Okay, at that time I didn't realize anything was wrong cos nobody told me anything.

I wasn't very fashionable when I was younger, I mean, other kids weren't too, but I was a fashion disaster. I remember what I used to wear.... Oh my. I realized this only like a few years back, like it suddenly dawned on me that I used to dress like a douche. And since then, I told myself I will make an effort to look good. Or at least, decent. Until this year. I looked at my wardrobe again carefully, and realized what I had were all very kiddish. Not that I wanted to look like an uncle, but the clothes I had really made me look like I was 15. Seriously. So I decided to change my entire wardrobe. But now not enough $$ so must save and slowly rebuild. (:
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(no subject) [Oct. 2nd, 2011|11:23 pm]
Only 4 months 25 days to ORD, I really can't wait to start a new chapter in my life. The amount of freedom that I'll have, getting to stay at home, eat normal food, not needing to wake up at 5ish everyday, oh the liberation!!

Haven't been doing much lately, just thinking that if everything happens for a reason, are we supposed to act on everything that comes in our way? If not, how come God allows these things to happen? For example, you meet someone on the street, who was an acquaintance, and you wonder, what's the purpose of that brief meeting?

My parents have decided to ballot for a flat in Clementi, y'know in front of Nan Hua? Opp U-town? Kinda funny cos I was staying just a few blocks from there about 9 years ago, before I shifted to Yew Tee. If we really do get the flat, I'm really gonna miss this place! But Clementi will bring back so many memories!

A lot of things changing, my dad got a new car, okay not really new. About 2 years old Toyota Corolla Altis, previous owner rarely drove. So as good as new. Parents are kinda planning for retirement already, which scares me a lil' cos everything's moving so fast now, and it seems like I'm gonna be tasked with taking care of them really soon! They keep saying, "Oh, this car not gonna change anymore already. Use until cannot use!" "Oh if we get the flat, we will stay there forever already. When you and Shawn marry your wives, can buy your own house." With this kind of talk, who wouldn't be afraid?

Okay anyway my friends are all like, not free or too busy studying. My off days are now completely free, nothing to do, nobody jio me go out. Quite sian.

I've been watching X-Factor on Youtube a lot! Some of the contestants are really good and inspiring!! (Y)
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2011|11:38 pm]
Since 2007, I've been single and I've seen alot of my friends through their relationships. And I've seen some break, some still going on strong, and in all honesty I've tried to woo a few girls over the past years. However, I feel that I'm in no position to settle down, mainly because I have no stable income and these years are probably the best years of your life, so why waste it on one girl who might not even be your wife in the future? Come to think of it, it really makes sense, doesn't it? You're forgoing time spent with friends to pamper some girl, or spending excessive money just to make this girl like you, when you can be enjoying your singlehood and freedom! Not that I'm condoning flirting and partying around, my point is that you can use the money/time to be generous with your true friends, spend quality time with them, do fun activities together, without having any restrictions.



Yup, all these are just random thoughts. (:
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Psych Central [Jul. 22nd, 2011|12:40 am]
Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.

You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.

You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.

You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.

Conscientious

You feel it's important to work according to a plan and finish every task, to do things correctly and thoroughly.

You are not the kind of person who abandons a project before finishing it, or slacks off when you've lost interest.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Friendly

You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.

You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time.

Upbeat

You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.

You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.

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Today [Jul. 14th, 2011|12:53 am]

was the first time in a long time that I felt many different emotions within a short span of time. I wonder if it’s good or bad…

On a brighter side, OFF day tmr!

LinkSpeak

:D [Jul. 10th, 2011|11:29 pm]
Okay, remember how I told you guys about this girl I went to fetch? Well thursday is her birthday so I'm bringing her out for Udders on Wed, and I'm gonna give her present there and then! Should I have sparklers to countdown and celebrate? I'm so nervous and excited!! I got her alot of stuff!
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My weekend [Jul. 5th, 2011|12:24 pm]
So this is pretty much what happened last weekend.

Ruth's 21st lunch at the Garden Slug!

Ruth and Joash

Happy birthday Ruth!

Swordfeesh @ the Garden Slug

Then NDP Preview show in the evening!

Fireworks

Fireworks

Red Lions

Toddler bored
LinkSpeak

(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2011|01:19 pm]
Just came back from a camp, gotta admit I feel really really old when I interact with the youths cos I really dk what to talk to them about. And they have so much energy, the older ones couldn't catch up at all, seriously. Cannot take it, generation gap already.

Anyway, this camp was for the entire Production Team for the Musical at the end of this year... Gotta say I made some new friends, and got some time to bond with my own cell group and others too. The worship sessions and the sermons were good, very direct and really got me thinking about alot of stuff. I really felt super exhausted yesterday evening, like I could break down anytime. Everyone kept rushing me for stuff to be submitted, deadlines kept changing, members kept disappearing, and my overall in-charge was on holiday so I was the 2ic, seriously cannot take it. Too much pressure, too much things to do, so many deadlines to meet, so many people to liaise with, so many videos/skits to come up with. I cannot take it anymore seriously, can die.

Sometimes I feel like giving up.
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